Bad Romance Lady Gaga suffers for her beloved art, including her acting.

In a roundtable conversation with fellow actresses Penélope Cruz, Kirsten Dunst, Jennifer Hudson, Kristen Stewart Tessa ThompsonPublished in The Los Angeles Times on Dec. 15, Gaga described herself as a “masochist” when she acts and “completely detached from real life.” The star, who recently received a Golden Globe nomination for her role of power-hungry Patrizia Reggiani in House of Gucci, opened up about her “totally unhealthy” process to the group.

House of Gucci marks Gaga’s second major movie after the Oscar-winning 2018 film A Star Is Born. In one scene, her character is served divorce papers by her daughter’s school. This was her use of personal trauma.

Gaga stated, “I only remember saying, ‘I’m going to shout at you for all women on Earth, for any woman that’s been hurt in such a way.’” “And then, I went back to where I had been assaulted in myself. It still feels like I am a rock star. I’ve been able get back up, and I can keep on working.