It’s officially been five trips around the sun without new episodes of The Vampire Diaries.

Und Ian Somerhalder is in his feels about it. On Feb. 9, the 43-year-old actor, who played Damon Salvatore in The CW’s supernatural drama, took to Instagram to reflect on his last day on set. 

Somerhalder uploaded a photo showing him with his IRL friend and brother. Paul Wesley—who starred as Stefan Salvatore—posing together outside before filming the final scene of the show.

“I just got this from @paulwesley…Holy sh–t, five years ago, on this day we wrappedThe Vampire DiariesHe wrote, “Forever.” This journey was truly amazing.

It was amazing to see how far it would take after filming that Vancouver scene, where they were flying on wires and hissing with their fangs at one another. He continued. “Wow. I’m humbled. This was the first television show to be viewed over a hundred million times. Nuts.”

It’s okay to cry, we aren’t. (OkaySo are we.