The Real Housewives of New JerseyStar Jackie Mark GoldschneiderShe is being candid about her 18 year struggle with an eating disorder, and how she recovered.

Despite being open with the subject, the reality TV star said tonight was the start of her healing journey.

On March 29, her Instagram account, she posted that her disorder “took my mind over my body and my lives.”

Jackie reflected on her experiences and said she was unable to seek help because of her own perceptions.

She described 18 years of unhealthy habits and secretive behavior, as well as obsessive exercising and eating patterns. “I felt ashamed about my eating habits and was afraid that others wouldn’t be able to understand how or why I did this. Being a mom of 4 children and a woman in her mid-twenties, I was unsure how to seek help.