Mandy didn’t hold back about how she felt after welcoming her son, admitting, “I think as his needs really started to continue to change…I just felt this rush of like, ‘I’m not good enough for him. It’s not easy being his mother. “I know how to feed him but, beyond that, I don’t feel qualified for the job.

She continued, “I felt ineffective and would glance at my husband because he seemed to be able to care for Gus.” He could smile and make Gus happy. He would make him laugh. He’d roll on his back and get down onto the ground. It was just that I felt terrible. He would get on the floor and roll around with me.

Although Mandy said she’s still “learning,” she also explained that she’s embracing the process.
She said, “I don’t know anything but I’m still here putting myself through the paces just stopping and breathing.” Accepting the fact that all phases are a phase and trusting my gut instincts is what makes me feel at my best.