Heidi called it “one the greatest challenges” and said that it was her fault for not being able to conceive. She also added, “I felt older.” The experience made me feel somewhat broken. I just felt like maybe I missed an opportunity, maybe I made a bad choice.” 

The reality TV star admitted that she is grateful for Spencer’s life and opportunities, and that Spencer was a great father.  

She shared that she is so thankful for all the blessings in her life, including being healthy and having a wonderful son. “At the end of it all, I just wanted to give my son one more opportunity to become a mother to a baby boy and have that chance for him to see me as a sister.” 

Heidi now reminds herself to be happy with each day of pregnancy. 

“I need to remember to just slow down, enjoy the time because this might be my last pregnancy—it most likely will—so I’m just trying to enjoy it as much as I can and soak it up and remind myself,” she said. Being pregnant is something I enjoy. This is one of my favorite experiences. It truly is a miracle. It is such a blessing that I want to embrace it fully.”