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Penn BadgleyJoe Goldberg stars on this thrilling series as Joe Goldberg. Please, shared what it’s like for him to film scenes where he fake masturbates for the show—and the experience isn’t too pleasant.

It’s a routine I have done many times. It’s a strange—you don’t think it’s going to be that big of a deal,” he shared during the July 13 episode of Stitcher’s Podcrushed podcast. You then discover that you are mimicking masturbation in front of thousands of people, with a camera in your face.

Penn stated that although he’s not sure exactly how to “parse out” his feelings while filming these scenes, it is often more challenging than any other type of sex scene. He said, “It’s just like this is what my doing.”