Ashley Iaconetti is having a candid conversation about breastfeeding.

Bachelor Nation’s star of Bachelor Nation, “I am not breastfeeding,” she said. She welcomed her son Dawson with husband Jared Haibon in January, wrote in a March 22 Instagram post. Dawson is happier because I know me well enough. I knew this was what would work best for my family during pregnancy.

After a rough pregnancy Ashley knew her body “needed to be only mine again” and “needed a break.” Her words were, “It didn’t need to be taught to do anything new again.” This year, it was enough to raise a child.

Looking back at Dawson’s debut, Ashley recalled how she “felt ‘normal’ again” almost immediately after she gave birth and how she’d feared she’d never feel this way again. 

I didn’t want to see my body struggle again, if it didn’t make breastfeeding easy (which it often does not), the Bachelor in Paradise alum continued. I knew that the stress that would come from that challenge was not going to be good news for me. Dawson deserves to be the best version me.”